I even went so far as to creating his own mailadress and started sending him some mails. But until now he remains quite a silent, un-responsive friend. Well, we are only getting to know each other, right? He might just want to get to know me first.

“But Hanna why? Why?”
- Well, my dear imaginary reader (see what I did there ) dont let yourself get frightened so easily by what you do not understand. Relax and just follow this post. Remember how good it felt, when you allowed your imagination to govern your world. Only good comes of that.
“Hmm, well then just continue. At least I will be entertained.”
- Thank you!

I became painfully aware that I am lacking a friend with certain qualities in my life at the moment. And those specific qualities are:

• someone who has a positive and passionate outlook on life
• someone who also agrees with the teachings of Abraham Hicks and Bashar
• someone who is really excited about delibaretely creating their own reality
• someone who appreciates me very much for the sweet, loving, authentic, clever, etc. being that I am
• AND someone who would enjoy if I send him several mails per day with positive Abraham processes, which he might read or not – just as he likes

This of course is only some of the qualities I desire in this particular friend, but I am relaxed that I will be creating him true to my vision along the way. And I can already sense that we are on the same page on a lot of things.

Well anyways, so there came Mario into my life … But Mario is still quite a blank page to me.

I never really have invented a whole new person. Or at least no-one that fits what I particularly wanted yesterday.

There is Sagarnath from the short story that I wrote. I have a very clear sense of him as a person and he is certainly very dear to me and he would surely love me if I introduced myself to him, but then again, I doubt that he has a mailbox and that he could be bothered receiving so many mails around the clock. He is much more the kind for silence and solitude.

Who else is there? Well there are some of my cuddly toys, but none of them is into Abrahams and Basahrs teaching and I really cant be bothered introducing them to that. That kind of thing never works – they either come to me asking about or I leave them alone. I love them just as they are.

Who else? A yes the girl in the well. That girl is the most powerful and beautiful being I have ever created. Unfortunately she only ever talks to me, when I let go of all my illusions and fears. When I become her. Then she looks at me and talks me, but otherwise the closer I try to get to her, so further I drift from her. And this amazing girl does not care. I truely love her the most, but she is of no help on that very realm.

Well of course there is this long and longer list of beings and people that live, or have lived or have been created by someone else and who now are dear friends to me – imaginary but not quite fitting the list.

I really appreciate them all very much in my life, and they love me in their personal ways very dearly as well: Granny Weatherwax, Littlefoot, My “dead” cat Jenny, My “dead” dog Anka, my “dead” grandfather Guenter, Jesus, Buddha (but he really doesnt say very much), Mohammed, Abraham Hicks, Bashar, Alexis Sorbas, the childlike Empress, the little prince, Margeruite Duras, Panait Istrati,… I am sure there are more, which I dont remember right now. All really sweet, wise, cool, funny beings that I am very proud to call my friends.

None of them I could convince in the hurry to get themselves a mailbox, and be excited about these processes that I am planning to send. They were all like: “Dont you know someone else?” Especially Anka, only communicates by looking at me and telepathically. She certainly would not know what to do with these processes. Love you, Anka!

And then of course there is what we so thoughtlessly call reality. And all of these dear friends are not of the Abraham-Bashar conviction and thereby despite many attempts never could be convinced of the great, GREAT value writing processes etc. really have. And just like the others, I love you very dearly as well, with or without the processes!

So back to Mario – who I so far only can sense a little. I was wondering if he is actually from the future – like from 3000 years into the future, where humanity as a whole has evolved to a stage, where humans are much much MUCH more deeply connected with their souls. In comparison to nowadays, humans of Marios times are much more loving, authentic, powerful, sensitive and free free free than the average shadow being that walks the planet these days.

Maybe Mario also only chose his kind of very German-20th-century sounding name in order to smoothen the early contact with him for me. I mean there is so little that I know yet about him, so anything really is possible.

But what I already know is that he is a very warm and loving person. And he is acutely interested in me right now. Very curious about this person that keeps asking him all these questions without listening to what he has got to say about it. I can feel that he has to say a lot, and that I simply havent found the right channel, the right tuning to receive his answers yet. But even though I cannot hear any words yet, I definitely already feel the humour, the love and the intense curiosity that he is emmenating right now.

I could imagine that sometimes he also might be a little too much for me, he is so very present. And well the fact is, sometimes I am not very present and then it depends, if he can go with my mood or not. But well maybe he can, maybe he does. Maybe he finds just as much joy in silence as me or Sagarnath or Buddha (he he he – I really dont know what it is with him, but he really never has said a single word to me – just looks at me and smiles).

Well and I know that I like him. I just want to be really sure that he appreciates the mails that I am sending him. He does not have to read them all, but that he is at peace and happy to find them in his mailbox and that he is aware of the value these processes have for me and that he is really happy thinking about how I do them. And maybe, maybe, MAYBE (oh how I would love that) – maybe one day I receive a mail from him, where he has written his own process. I would love that so much. And I really hope he reads my blog as well and thereby is so much more up-to-date with everything.

… oh after editing the post and reading it a second time I actually got the first clear answer from him, he said: “Girl, dont be stupid. That is awesome. I love what you are doing. Dont think that just because I am here in what you call the future that I am not just as excited as you are. You dont get that every day, that you receive messages from someone temporally so far away, but vibrationally so close. And I love your mails. I love the determination and eagerness with which you approach your dreams and desires. Believe it or not – the method you use is pretty awesome. I dont know who Abraham Hicks is, but I will do some research and then I tell you if I like it. Keep it going. You are a lovely person!”

I told you, he is quite the talkative one.
“Well, well, well.” (which are the closing words of my sweet, a little reluctant but very dear imaginary reader)

You crushed my words,
only dust now,
blowing through the worlds.

“Authenticity”, most believe, “surely is important, BUT…”

And I say: There is no „BUT“ that is any real but. Because basically there is no BUT. You are scared and you are only justifying your fears. But your fears are unsubstantiated. We all are meant to be authentic – absolutely authentic. Absolutely authentic. That is what we are. And if we are not, we are not ourselves. We are shadows. We are dead. We are empty. We are nothing. We are a shadow of our true selves. We are powerless, lonely, empty beings.

Why does noone get this? Why does noone seem to sense that when you are not authentic, when you are not true to yourself, when you hide yourself, that you are not being who you truely are? How can anyone believe that a lie is justified? It never is! I feel an all-consuming rage over this.

Every stupid person – and those are 99% – would be beat up badly right now, if I had a say in that. Of course they wouldnt be – NO WORRIES. I am the last person to harm anybody – I simply could not. Because that goes so much against my nature, and I simply cannot go against myself. But I so much would want to.

The retardedness of a belief system that makes it legitimate to lie and cheat on yourself is out of my willingness to grasp. I mean, I do understand how someone could be scared of retaliation and death and therefore decides to conform, but any person who actually believes that this is right, should be permanently have to live in a children cradle until they grow out of these retarded beliefs.

I am a being with the greatest sensitivity and therefore I know how people tick very well – often much better than the people themselves. I DO understand completely the „Why“ of it. But – still – the harm that people cause to themselves and others through all their inauthenticity is what makes me crinch in disgust and rage. It is so obvious!

And at least, at least, have some dignity, some integrity and dont justify what you are doing and go even so far as to demonize those who are doing it RIGHT. At least you humans – AT LEAST – go and respect those who are doing right. Because you know, that it is right. You – yes I fucking mean YOU – know that deep inside! You KNOW it. Dont be so childish as to think I would believe you for a second that you dont really know that. Stop these childish stupid attempts.

I am not your enemy (even though I might sound like one right now). I am well aware of what kind of emotional reactions my words might evoke in you.

My devilish angels. Really try to listen to your heart. See I love humanity. I really love you, love us all. I really do and I want the good for you – he he and for me. I want a world full of people that are truely true to themselves in their thought, speech and action. Cant you just relax for a moment and listen to that soul of yours? Just for a moment? Cant you sense the beauty of that thought? Cant you sense the beauty of a world where authenticity is the norm? Believe me, you just have a soul like I do. It is so beautiful. So so so so beautiful. So much love, so much power, so much dignity! You are all God. If you would know the beauty of your soul, you would understand my anger.

And also – even though you may not agree with my words – your soul is rejoicing in agreement to my message (of course not to my hatred or rage – your soul in fact loves you very dearly just as you are). So try to listen – try to listen – not so much to me, but to the message of your soul that speaks through my words which echo in your heart.

Believe me, I will never give up on you. I will always rather hate you, than not care at all. I will always speak the truth of my soul. I will always rather speak in rage than be silent. Believe me that my rage is love, that is just desperate right now. Believe me. Or dont believe me, but believe your soul. Ask your soul how important authenticity is for you? Ask your soul!

We are in a state where what you define as normal is not normal. Dont listen to the definitions of society of what is normal. Find the normal within you. Be real and be true. Dont wait until the weeks before you die to have this realization and annoy me with your regret. Go have it now! Own your life – own yourself.

As a FOOTNOTE I want to add, that I see rage as a important, empowering step on the way to realizing my true self. I dont believe that my current rage is all there will be heard about this. The intense energy of rage will transform itself inside of me … it actually already is transforming. So anybody who has a believe system that agrees with my rage, but believes that this rage is all that is. That this is how it is and that there is nothing we can do about it. Sorry, I am not interested in your sympathy. ALWAYS LOOK FOR THE LIGHT. Always reach for your power – which lies with your love and not your rage.

Especially when in such deep deep darkness – I am not interested in people who want to cuddle with me because they believe themselves stuck in the same darkness that I am in and want my companionship. I am growing – I wont be here for long. I am moving on, my sweethearts. And I am definitely not going to hang around with the likes of you.

Ha ha – that should have eliminated a great part of the few sympathy’s that this post might have evoked.

Much much much LOVE to you all. I really love you rascals, bastards and pessimists (I have to, otherwise I would have to hate my own rascal-, bastard- and pessimistness). We are all in it together. It is crazy, this journey. But I wouldnt have it any other way. LOVE!!!

I truely wish for you, that you get more a sense of the limitlessness of what you could be. I so much wish, you start allowing yourself more and release your resistance.

Yes I would love you to have this joyful sense of – I am free – I can be whoever I want to be.

I would love you to say to yourself – as if you wake up from a long long sleep: “Wow, it is not the way that I thought it to be – not at all! Quite the contrary is true: all the effort – trying things, talking, doing – that I made so far, has led me away from me. No! it is the vibrational journey that will lead me to myself.

Oh yes sure – only because I am finally realizing this, all my resistance against being myself, that I collected throughout my life, will not simply vanish. But I trust that with time and effort I can release it and start thinking thoughts that are more in alignment with my true self. Yes I know I can find a way to be more in alignment with who I really am. And first of all: Yes , I am me. I am me, and I will find out who I am.

Yes dear loved ones, I love you very much, but from now on, I will follow only my own bliss, not what you think is my bliss. I will not let anybody or anything define anymore who I am. Only me can know who I am and what I want.

And I follow my calling, because in the end that is really the only thing to do here during this beautiful life on this beautiful earth. I will follow my calling. I might stumble often, but believe me the times are over, where I believed that anyone or anything could limit myself. I can feel, how much there is to come from me. In so many areas. So much abundance. I am excited about this life. I am truely excited about this life. From now on I will use every experience to explore who I am and who I want to be.”

Yes – exactly! Being free, means being in your power, in your true power. When you feel fear you are most seperated from your power. You believe in your own powerlessness in your vulnerability. When you are free – you know of your absolute power, you know of the eternalness of your soul, you are love, you are clarity, and most of all: You are you. There is no bondage but our own.

Did you hear this: THERE IS NO BONDAGE BUT YOUR OWN.

Abraham Hicks says:

The freedom that is being challenged here is not being challenged by the world, but by your perception of the world. You care too much what people think.

Being free means to allow outer conditions. If you are free you dont need to control anything, you dont need to try anything. Being free also means letting others be free.

Your power is in your focus. Your power is to create your own vibration. Your power is to practice your vibration so greatly that it becomes dominant under any given circumstances. Your power is to allow your own selfishness and only follow your own guidance. Your power is to be who you are, under any given circumstances. Your power is to maintain the connection with your soul under any given circumstances.

You are free to feel love, when someone hates you.

Yes, you have control over your thoughts and your emotions. You chose your thought. And that is all you need to be free.

You can have and be whatever you can imagine to be, you just have to find a way to allow it. The universe always delivers. That is all. Allowing doesnt sound difficult. Does it? I mean sure we are all trained into quite some resistance. But the word as such – „allowing“ – sounds very very easy. No?

And I can imagine many things. I mean that is the amazingness of this thought! Sure there is resistance on many subjects in my life. We are matter, we are physical beings – so it is not so surprising to have resistance. But to just know that I have the possibility to be and have whatever I want – that it just depends on my ability to allow – that means limitless power.

And this is do-able. For everyone. Because we all know which thought feels better and which thought feels worse. We have a guidance system of emotions that constantly calls us to our source, to where we want to be, to what we want to be. If something feels bad its taking us away from our source, if something feels good it is taking us towards our source. This emotional guidance system is absolutely reliable. We have a very clear guidance in us. A very clear guidance.

And if we only start to unfold our guidance power, then there is nothing to hold us back – except ourselves of course.

It is really just ourselves that can keep us from our souls. Not society, not our parents, not our lover, not our coworkers, not religion, only ourselves.

We dont trust that we can be who we want to be. We dont trust that we dont have to do anything to be who we want to be, except allowing the universe to arrange things. That is it. There are no fights to fight. We dont have to sacrifice anything. We can be ourselves in all our bloom and beauty. Thats why we decided to get born in the first place. To find our souls again and again throughout the many paths of life.

Everybody is free to feel good!

Do you think Jesus was this selfless being only wanting to serve mankind? Do you really believe that he freed you from your sins by dieing?

Quite the contrary is true. Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, Moses, Martin Luther King and their like – they were all amazingly selfish people.

Because if you are not selfish you cannot be anything. Or rather say: You can be anything, but yourself. And if you are not yourself, then who are you? What are you?

Never sacrifice yourself for another. And thereby I mean: Never sacrifice your connection with your soul for anything or anybody. Never ever do that!

And how often do we do that – all day long?! Omar Khayyam said: You can only find God in your heart. No Haj to Mekka will bring you closer to God. The only Haj that anyone has to take is the Haj that leads to your soul.

Believe me: Mohammed or Jesus would have never want you to listen more to their words than to your own soul. God always speaks to you through your soul. God, source, life energy, whatever you want to call it, it always speaks to you through your own soul. And even if you are far away from your own soul you can always hear the calling at least. Your feelings will always tell you how close or far away you are from what you call soul.

Be selfish – listen to your soul. Do always what feels good. Be selfish.

You take great joy in uplifting or teaching or giving to others. Well sure – our soul is all about love and joy. But whatever you do, do it selfishly. Always do it selfishly. Never go about sacrificing your connection with your soul. Dont. Dont do it. It is not worth it.

You cannot give to the world if you feel empty inside. And you will feel empty when you dont listen and follow the calling of your soul.

People, the time is more than ripe. Listen to that soul of yours!

Somehow I must have always known you. I must have – even before our visit to this earth. Since KNOWING you just feels right. And hear this: You are amazing. You are breath-taking to me. I feel so honored knowing you. And more than that: I feel RIGHT knowing you. I feel REAL knowing you. Do you know how truely amazing it looks when you open your eye-lids for the first time in the morning and cast your gaze upon the world? You seem to lighten up the world with your eyes. Even more: The world becomes more real when you look at it. This moment is so special. As if a new world is born to me.

I cannot stop describing how beautiful these eyes of yours are: These beautiful gateways to your soul. I look into your eyes and I start feeling you, seeing you, breathing you. And the longer I look the more I become engulfed by the sensation of you. Your essence flows and burns around me. I so much want to touch you, want to touch you, you, you.

Oh you beautiful being. Do you know your eyes sing like music when they shine? The universe in your eyes. The sweet, sweet, sweet tune. Everywhere, in everything. Can you taste it? The sweetness, I mean.

Your eyes are worlds to me. Worlds that I enjoy so much.

Beloved sweetheart, bless me with the world of your eyes. Let me see.
Blessed be this world, blessed be this moment, blessed be you and me.
I love you my lover of my body and soul.
I love you my dear friend and companion.

Woman, do you remember when Life is beautiful?
Do you hear the music?
No you dont, we know. But you do. It is been long since you have been alive. Life is just around the corner.

Life is great and good and with you.
Laugh.
You always knew about the dance. You remember the flight? Life is glorious. Can you catch the moment when it twists. The moment you live.
Do you hear the laughter, sweet child, beloved woman?
Do you feel the movement? Do you feel life? You can, cant you?
Oh yes it hurts but it is just as joyful, just the same.
You do live. Angel, you do live.

People? One missed note.

Always hear the tune. You will be. You are.
Hear the Water and the Fire – can you remember the joy? Can you remember the joy that is? Can you remember where you are going? Oh these sweet memories of pain to come, of joy to come.
Waves follow you through the world when you soar.
There is no end.
Dance that sweet dance of yours.
Never ever despair, we know your joy.
Cant you hear your dance? You can. Jump and twist around. You know that this is the flow. It is twirling. The joy is with you.
You will find. Just remember. Always remember yourself. No way you cannot become. You are becoming.
In the seasons of life. Dont despair. Summer holds you.
The treasure are you.
And you lie down at the ocean. Breathing life.

While you were coming home. We loved you.
Can you hear the dance? You want to dance your whole life through? You do angel, you will. Never despair, we know your rejoice.
You will dance.
Your dance is close by.
Trust me.
It is.
You can hear the tune. Dont despair – it is there. Dont despair.
Life lives. Rivers flow. To Rivers. Rivers flow. To the ocean. Deep, heavy ocean.

It is joy and we will ride.
After you came here. We never were alone.
We were two together.
And then you flew away, and we became one.
You were laughing in silver tones.
Always remember the laughter that is to come. Nowhere is there an end to this.
Always. Always.
Oh sweet life, desire.
And there flows the tune again. And you spin. There is no end to this.
You. Soar. High.